someday
31 July 2013
someday
Maybe I will be back someday,
though we both knew it was a lie
it was just something to say
instead of goodbye.
though we both knew it was a lie,
saying nothing would have hurt more
instead of goodbye
as I walked out the door.
saying nothing would have hurt more
we already cried enough tears,
as I walked out the door —
don’t believe everything you hear.
we already cried enough tears,
it was just something to say
don’t believe everything you hear,
maybe I will be back someday.
as evening falls
31 July 2013
as evening falls
As evening falls, once again
crickets chirp, heard, but unseen
questions which drive men insane
and I wonder what it means.
crickets chirp. heard, but unseen,
In the quiet, chilly air,
and I wonder what it means.
why sometimes I just don’t care.
in the quiet, chilly air,
I have too much time to ask
why sometimes I just don’t care
but some things I cannot grasp.
I have too much time to ask
questions which drive men insane
but some things I cannot grasp
as evening falls once again.
Pearl
13 January 2010
Pearl
(Matthew 13:45)
Lately, I have begun to realize
all I truly need is always right there.
I only see when I open my eyes
how much I do not need to compromise.
I like to conclude that life is not fair.
Lately, I have begun to realize
it’s just my defense, the way I disguise
what I, perhaps, attract so unaware.
I only see when I open my eyes
how I deceive myself by telling lies.
Afraid I’m destined to play solitaire,
lately I have begun to realize,
falling in love can take you by surprise
when you find the one with whom you can share.
I only see when I open my eyes
how close love could be if I’d recognize
it could happen anytime, anywhere.
Lately I have begun to realize,
I only see when I open my eyes.
Alligators
16 December 2011
Alligators
I’m not as gullible as you might think,
although experience might be lacking.
I have my doubts about what you say, but
I don’t believe there is danger lurking.
Although experience might be lacking,
naively I skirt the water’s edges.
I don’t believe there is danger lurking,
so I’m throwing all caution to the wind.
Naively, I skirt the water’s edges.
Perhaps I shouldn’t taunt what I can’t see?
If I’m throwing all caution to the wind,
would I learn if something really bit me?
Perhaps I shouldn’t taunt what I can’t see
if I have my doubts about what you say,
I might learn if something really bit me,
but I am not that gullible today.
Release
20 October 2011
Release
Perhaps it’s easier to just let go,
but how do you know when the end is reached?
Everything happens for a reason,
even if I cannot see what that is.
But how do you know when the end is reached?
There should be some good coming out of this,
even if I cannot see what that is
at the moment. Perhaps in time I will.
There should be some good coming out of this.
If only I could see beyond the hurt
of the moment. Perhaps in time I will
understand, some things are not meant to be.
If only I could see beyond the hurt,
accept what was without any regrets,
understand some things are not meant to be,
then I could learn to practice gratitude.
Accept what was, without any regrets.
Everything happens for a reason.
If I could learn to practice gratitude,
perhaps it would be easier to let go.
but lately the words
18 October 2011
but lately the words
But lately, the words don’t seem to say much,
a reflection of emptiness inside.
Should silence ever be allowed to speak?
Would I comprehend what it tried to say?
A reflection of emptiness inside,
I avoid the questions and the answers.
Would I comprehend what they tried to say,
even if I could face my mirrored soul?
I avoid the questions and the answers,
disassociating from all my fears,
even if I could face my mirrored soul
I dare not own either shadows or light.
Disassociating from all my fears
I’m left to wonder what I have to say.
I dare not own either shadows or light
yet if I’m caught between two worlds I must.
I’m left to wonder what I have to say
should silence ever be allowed to speak.
If I am caught between two worlds it must,
but lately the words don’t seem to say much.
Now
24 September 2011
Now
That was then, this is Now,
you’d think that I would learn
to let go of the past –
sometimes you can’t return.
You’d think that I would learn,
after all of these years,
sometimes you can’t return –
it’s not worth holding on.
After all of these years,
I may never know why
it’s not worth holding on –
but I have to believe!
I may never know why
love seems so hard to find,
but I won’t believe that
it is impossible.
Maybe love can be found,
just let go of the past.
It’s not impossible –
that was then, this is Now.
Beast
24 September 2011
Beast
It is just the nature of the beast,
but I do not deny my shadows,
labeling this as good, that as bad
as I seek to learn, to understand.
But I do not deny, my shadows,
sometimes, are much harder to accept
as I seek to learn to understand
how all of these parts create the whole.
Sometimes, I find it’s hard to accept
the truth I would rather not admit.
How do all these parts create the whole?
Does anyone ever fully know
the truth? I would rather not admit,
the more I learn, the more I wonder
does anyone ever fully know
that much of what lies within their soul?
The more I learn, the more I wonder,
labeling myself as good or bad,
if much of what lies within my soul
is just the nature of the beast.
Maybe just maybe
23 September 2011
Maybe, just maybe
But maybe, just maybe, someday,
after all is said and done,
I will find that the journey
is all that truly matters.
After all is said and done,
if I learn that being
is all that truly matters,
perhaps it won’t be too late?
If I ever learn that being
is not the same as what I do,
perhaps it won’t be too late
to learn who I am?
It’s not the same as what I do,
but who knows if
learning who I am
is worthwhile after all?
And who knows if
we will find our journeys
were worthwhile after all,
but maybe, just maybe, someday …
